I'm feeling *spams all known vulgarities with an -ly/-ing* about my results now. I'm probably as nervous as the whole secondary four cohort in the country combined.

Just so you know, whether I pass or fail, I'll be doing whatever I want I wanna do with my life for myself. Because no matter what I do for anybody, it has never been enough. So why bother? I have never been good enough for anyone and practically nobody has been supportive of my decisions. I'm not being dramatic. When I say nobody, I mean nobody. Out of all the people in the world who has motivated me and only expects more the moment I improve are my teachers and tutors. Apparently those who actually know how good or weak at for those seven subjects.

Besides that, I don't know what's my ambition. There are so many type of courses I wanna take up but all for the wrong reasons. I'd take Health Sciences cus my dad wants me to. I'd take Tourism & Hospitality cus I've taken the course before and am more familiar with it. I'd take Aerospace Engineering cus my dad says its a 'backup plan'. You know what, I'm sixteen and I don't know what the hell to do with my life.

So anyways,

Is this true?

If it is, I'm effing insulted. Hahahah! But pretay true. Tho I won't treat a guy like that, seriously. But hahahah! How does he know?

xoxo