Dear you,

I miss you. We've been together for four years and I don't know if I should throw what we had away just because there's someone new in your life. I regret saying what I've said and I'd like to take it back but I guess it's too late to do so. We lost trust in each other through many misunderstandings. At first, I didn't mind having one less person in my life cus I know that eventually people will walk out of my life.

It just feels like you had walked out of my life and it's only four years. If you had, I'd just like you to know that I haven't walked out of yours. I'd like to be there for you as much as you've been there for me during the roughest of times during my previous relationships. I miss your jokes, your laugh, your smile. Now, it even feels awkward to take a photo with you even though we have done so for a zillion times.

Maybe I'm jealous. I'm jealous that you have a boyfriend and I don't. That you have someone to actually look up to and I don't. That you have someone who'll understand you and I don't. I'm so used to see all of us belong to each other for ourselves and now you belong to someone else.

It looks like what people say was right. You'd never know what you'd have till it's gone. I'll admit that I never really appreciated your existence and I'm sorry for that. People say that you don't care about anyone else. Well, we're human aren't we?

I remembered the times when everyone else didn't understand me, and I had you. You were there through thick and thin and ups and downs and all around. We've gone through so much together. You were there when I needed you. And where was I? You gave me a shoulder to cry on. You borrowed me a listening ear. You supported me with whatever decisions that I've made and when I made a bad choice, you'll pull me back and show me the right path.

You've heard my laughter and especially my cries. When I looked back and remembered the times when you were there for me, it seems like I had never been there for you.

If next year will be the last year we'll being seeing each other everyday, I just want to let you know that I love you (and the rest) more than anyone could love another friend. And if next year, I don't get to sit beside you in class, I just want to let you know that I'm always near. And if next year, something bad happen, I'd always be by your side.

xoxo

Happy new year everyone! Have a great year ahead!

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