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Saturday, April 4, 2009
, 8:20 PM
⇨Infinite ;
Deep down inside of me lies a tag which says, "handle with care".
Whenever people asks, "Oh hey babe, hows you?" and I'll say, "Just fine."
Well, I am but not so much. I didnt know this path I took could lead me to much more misery. Whatever it is, I'm just gonna study doubly hard this year. No more failing every A Math test but pushing my grades up instead. I'm not going to bother of what my friends or other people think of me anymore. I've got to stop listening to other people ordering me around & having to do that just so they wont put up a shitty face.
Lately, I'm always the one who has to say sorry though I'm not the one at fault. Wth.
No doubt, I'll still love everyone who makes me happy & not regretting every moment which made me smile (:
Whenever people asks, "Oh hey babe, hows you?" and I'll say, "Just fine."
Well, I am but not so much. I didnt know this path I took could lead me to much more misery. Whatever it is, I'm just gonna study doubly hard this year. No more failing every A Math test but pushing my grades up instead. I'm not going to bother of what my friends or other people think of me anymore. I've got to stop listening to other people ordering me around & having to do that just so they wont put up a shitty face.
Lately, I'm always the one who has to say sorry though I'm not the one at fault. Wth.
No doubt, I'll still love everyone who makes me happy & not regretting every moment which made me smile (:
Labels: Drama
Saturday, March 28, 2009
, 11:12 AM
⇨so yesterday
This was like 2 years ago with my newbie/kental face.Do take your time to read this post [:
If you think you've got more problems to face then I have, wait till you hear my story.
And since I lost th only listening ear I have, I'd just post them here .
Its all a misunderstanding i guess. In the end I really didnt lose my friends but I did lost one who got sick of listening to me complain. Kay, I'm sorry for dragging her into this. Now, i wont be a third party anymore. Things we'll get normal in no time with them together not arguing about anything that has to do with me. I'll keep secrets to myself & my diary. Yeah, I can live with that (:
Apart from that, I wasnt one of those selected to go to Indonesia. Yeah, im sucky at the Malay Language. Besides, Cikgu Mislimah said that my chances of going wont be very high. Atleast I was warned very early. So yeah I had to listen to my friends talk about the fun things their gonna do there. I was crying inside & hoping to say "SHUT UP LAH!". Ofcourse I didnt, I felt seriously happy for them. Heh.
Plus that day was also the day that I broke his heart. Well, did i ? I'm sorry, for hypnotizing/brainwashing you. And it doesnt has anything to do with the bloodyhell jerk who I swear can never love him again but still in my mind. Yeah, understand me. Im using upside down English, LOL. Its for the best I guess, his taking his 'Ns' while I'm really having a hard time coping with POA & A Maths at the same time. I kinda feel bad for rejecting. I mean seriously. The only guy since the last 5 months who claims that he cares & understands me, and i turned him down. Haiz. Atleast things with me & him are going fine now. Yeah dude, we're tight as homies.
Lastly, 2 days ago when all this happen, I was crying the whole day at home till my mum scolded me for having to much self-pity. Yeah, thanks alot for making things much worse . I spent the whole day in my room & I fell asleep on the floor at 9.30.
The only good thing which happened that day was getting 16/18 for my POA test. Yay.
I hope things will get better later at Khairiyah's crib. Its her belated birthday party & I was the one who invited myself. HA-HA ! Ofcourse, I asked her first lah.
Kay that was, pffffffffft Thursday . Yesterday rocked abit .
Training was fun, especially during Evacuation when we have to spell our name with the radio signal word thing. Yknowyknow the Alpha Brava Charlie Delta Echo Foxtrot blablablah . And Afifah & Zul missed a letter and had to say out all the words from A-Z . ROFL . Yeah it was the first time I laughed so much since Thursday . 17th is the stepping down ceremony . In my case I would be stepping up bebeh ! Doesnt matter whose the Ex-Cos . Congrats to whoever lah ekh !
Today otw home, I met Haizrul dressing very smartly . He said something but I couldnt hear so i just grinned very widely .
So yeah that was my oring week, yawn.
Till then, take care luves !
Labels: Drama
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
, 7:06 PM
⇨Till The Morning
I'm a failure cause I suck at everything & I'm an embarrassment to nature .
I wont talk much about my day today .
Darling Girlfies,
If you were to find the word "friend" in the dictionary, our pictures in there.
P/S Susan found gold eyeshimmers . YAY !
I wont talk much about my day today .
Darling Girlfies,
If you were to find the word "friend" in the dictionary, our pictures in there.
P/S Susan found gold eyeshimmers . YAY !
Labels: Drama