The Author
Thursday, March 19, 2009
, 8:34 PM
⇨for always/temporary ?
Inspired by 2 unknown bloggers (:
It takes time to realize, that it isn't worth crying for someone who no longer cares .
Yes, the pain, suffering & agony .
Sometimes, I'll look back & ask myself, "Did he really care/love me ?"
Brainwashed . I felt so used then . It was as if I was an experiment, a solution to your problems for awhile .
After that, you left . Just like that .
Just when I thought things were going great, our story ended .
When I got to know you were happy with someone else, I lied about everything .
My status, my feelings, my identity . When I told you the hurting lies, I didn't realize that I've cut you deep . Obviously, it didn't make me feel better too . Now we're even .
I don't see why you must lie too . You promised & said "I'll never stop loving you." Crap, you've always got me hypnotized by the sweet words you say .
Now, I still think of you once in awhile . Someday when I'm happy with someone else again, then I'll know whats love .
Surprisingly, it doesn't concerns me if you're with someone else . But knowing that you're happy, is the most nicest thing (:
Sweetheart, this would be the last time I'll be posting my feelings about you .
I wish you every happiness in the world :D
It takes time to realize, that it isn't worth crying for someone who no longer cares .
Yes, the pain, suffering & agony .
Sometimes, I'll look back & ask myself, "Did he really care/love me ?"
Brainwashed . I felt so used then . It was as if I was an experiment, a solution to your problems for awhile .
After that, you left . Just like that .
Just when I thought things were going great, our story ended .
When I got to know you were happy with someone else, I lied about everything .
My status, my feelings, my identity . When I told you the hurting lies, I didn't realize that I've cut you deep . Obviously, it didn't make me feel better too . Now we're even .
I don't see why you must lie too . You promised & said "I'll never stop loving you." Crap, you've always got me hypnotized by the sweet words you say .
Now, I still think of you once in awhile . Someday when I'm happy with someone else again, then I'll know whats love .
Surprisingly, it doesn't concerns me if you're with someone else . But knowing that you're happy, is the most nicest thing (:
Sweetheart, this would be the last time I'll be posting my feelings about you .
I wish you every happiness in the world :D
Labels: Happily Never After, Memories, Sunked., Unconsiously
Friday, November 28, 2008
, 4:14 PM
⇨It doesnt really matter .
I love you & I always will .
Goodbye .
Goodbye .
Labels: Home Alone, Memories
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
, 7:17 PM
⇨:DD
Last night was a mistake,
but today wasnt .
My days started of at school . We had footdrill training for Silver Accreditation . Yupsiez, i passed Bronze . So yeah ended early , went home & went out again . Met Khairiyah & Nazirah at Segar . The usual, Khairiyah was lateeee . Met Elmo at Plaza . Blehs , then headed off to Ten Mile . On the way there a super finny thing happened . Hahahas ! Okay, Aidil had training today & Khariyah actually set an alarm when he finished his training . Hahahahs ! Khairiyah is like super lucky to have a boyf like her , not ? Whenever i wanna meet a certain ex boyf last time theres something thats bound to go wrong yknowww . TSK . Okay moving on, i bought my camp things there, then blablablahh . Lepak at Senja . Played truth or dare . Hahahs ! Funnn :D I didnt get a dare . [: So my truth is always about one person . Not all the truths though . Elmo got dared to wear eyeliner & Nazirah got dare to use lipgloss . Rabakk . After that we played in the rainnnnnn ! Coooooool seyyy . Then camwhored . & im very lazy to upload the pic one by one so i edited it . tadaaaaa !
Now, im currently chatting with Elmo & Fandi . & my eyes are feeling blury now . Kay, byeee !
Labels: Memories
Friday, November 21, 2008
, 8:17 PM
⇨I'll Be Fine :D
Hey, everyone .
Yeah, I'm fine . In the process of cure-ing actually . Two reasons why i'm doing fine so fastt ,
#1. Had a fun, looooooong day .
#2. I've got a bursary !
Yes ahhhh ! But i cant apply for it , again . Heck care, just apply . No money never mind . It doesnt by happiness . Hehs, it just proves that im gooooooooood ! Wheeee~ And thanks Azmirah for the advice :D
Apparently i havent told anyone about my new URL . Well, I plan to when I can login to my freaking MSN .
Okay, today was my school's open house . I'm veryvery lazy to upload the pictures . Plus i wont be coming tomorrow cause I've got to get to HQ to send something . GAHS ! But, yeah i will still be there, late .
Anddd just now ? Kay my day started of waking up at 6.20 am . Then it was footdrill in school . I was damn tired . After that, changed to full-u & help out at the bench for awhile . & so spent the rest of the day going to Azlina & the soccer booth instead of doing my duty . :p Kay my day ended at 4pm . I was super exhausted . Aidil and his friends were there . Blablabla, went to Plaza . & im broke . :(
And last night I had a good conference chat with Nazirah, Khairiyah & Elmo . I was quiet . But I had a good laugh today with them . Hahahs ! Will be conferencing them again today . Yeahhh !
And here are the pictures . *applause*
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Nazirah !
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Elmo, Nazirah & Artika ;D
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Khairiyah, Artika, Elmo & Nazirah [:
Kay fineee, it'll be better if I let go my fringe . And ignore my uniform, thanks :D
Labels: Memories
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
, 3:15 PM
⇨I wasnt letting go ;
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Suppz All !
Currently smsing Fandi & listening to some songs . While
Nazirah & Khairiyah are running around the field like a mad cow .
LOL . I just have the tendency to insult soccer players . &
yup its good to have someone to msg me, again . Hope my
bill wont explode this time . Kekekekekek .
Okay, im at home, alone . Again . Mum & Aryani are at
Zhenghua CC watching ironman . Boring ! So yeah, im
stuck at home & i just cant wait till next week when Girlfies
are freeeeee . Cant get hold of Azlina though . Tried
calling her just now but no one answered . So yeahhh .
Blablabla will be starting Ngaji tmr . Just hope that Nazrul
wont be there to insult me like last time . Gawwd, i really
need to learn how to stand up for myself . Hahahas !
Kay and I just wanna share some of the embarassing
moments I had when I was young . Lol .
Primary One
I got busted for making noice in the library with my senior.
Primary Two
I didnt hand in my homework for 3 days straight [:
Primary Four
I was the worst class monitress ever !
Primary Five
Elected Model pupil , ehem . *bragging starts*
Primary Six
I lost Everything, dont ask
Secondary One
I showed my passion of laughter to my friends, muahahahas !
Secondary Two
Nazirah & Me got busted by Mr Allan for the slightest thing .
Hahahs, good times . Kay, bye !
Wait a minute, im backkk ! & its 7.52pm when i edited this
post . Hehehehehes .
So yeah anyways, its almost nightnight time which means theres
like alottttt of people online . & yeah, i forgotten to Sign Off from
MSN mann . Dzul & Feeka said hello but i didnt reply . Well, Fandi
said hello too but i managed to said hello back while the other 2 got
offline . Hehehehes, my bad . Sorry yah .
& now, daddy & yani are watching Get Smart . Im gonna join them
soon . & i managed to catch the latest episode of Desperate Houswives .
Yeah , about the tornado thing . Am not telling . Gawdd, daddy is really
having a good laugh outside . Yeah, i wanna join . Kay take care !
Labels: Home Alone, Memories